Always tired...

Just want to know what I'm doing and if it will lead to something good. My family is hurting, especially my grandma who is currently in the hospital. More and more, I've gotten aggressive. I've been eating healthy and working out every morning and I've gotten an inch off my waist in about 2 weeks which is extremely good considering that I'm going for muscle mass. But like I said, I've gotten more aggressive. I've been able to surpress it some and let it out in healthy ways like weight lifting, but the side affect of it is that I've gotten use to punching the walls of my house. Like the metal wall between the kitchen and the living room and the brick wall outside. Like I've gotten use to that pain that your knuckles feel when you hit something and what's scarier is that I'm starting to enjoy it. I feel like I'm letting that sensitive side in me rest and even though it causes me a serious amount of pain, the sensitivity is part of me and keeps me in touch of the people around me. I need to bring it back. I also need to work on my grades. I need to pay the RUF/NEKS. I need to do all my duties for the RUF/NEKS. I need to do my ethics paper. I need so much stuff to do. *sighs* And everyone around me is self centered and I don't know how to talk to them. I want to sleep, but then again, I want to punch that wall again, but I need to go lift weights...