Life is just nuts right now. I got classes I'm close to failing and I don't need that when I need a good G.P.A. for medical school. Also I got these girls on my mind, and I know I want to get into a relationship, but what can I provide? I don't have a job, barely have enough money to make it through the week. I mean, what's the point? It's been so long since I've been in a relationship. Since I've been ready to be in a relationship, I don't know what's asked of a boyfriend anymore. I just need to go get my head together I think. Need to refocus on work. In fact, Kasey asked me today "What's wrong and don't even deny that something is wrong." I just have this in my mind. What is asked of a guy who is in a relationship? Do I really have a chance with these girls? Kasey helped decided all I can do is talk to these girls and just see where things go.