Tired. That's all I am. I'm just tired. I don't know what to do anymore. I just hate everything new. I hate to admit it, but I miss the secruity that came with being in high school. I mean college is a great amount of fun, but there is so much you have to grow up for to be able to survive in college, it's nuts and defiantly overwhelming. It also doesn't help that I think of everyone else, and I guess, I just worry about others problems before my own. I think I kind of understand what my friend Michelle is saying, I'm missing my life worrying about others. I mean..... I don't even know what I mean anymore. I know it's probably all coming out as gibberish right now, but it helps me to write down so just bear with me.

I don't know what to do about the girls.
I don't know what I can do for my family.
I'm scared out of my mind for my family.
I'm horrified about class and grades.
I mean, God seriously, HELP!!
I don't know how much more humble I can get, I'm just lost, give me some means to do what's right in your eyes. I know I can't survive without you in my life everyday. I gladly throw myself at your mercy. I take my crosses that you have decided for me to bear and I trust you to give me the strength I need. I just pray for a little light in whatever darkness I'm in right now. I mean that would be nice, but I doubt I'll get it. In times of test, you are trying the faith of your children. I'm just tired and lost and scared. Give me some means of secruity in your arms that I once felt before. Just listen.........