Man, I look back 2 weeks ago and it seems like there were the signs that everything was going to go to shit pretty quick but I had no idea.
A close friend of mine was killed 2 weeks ago when he went jogging. He got hit by a train. Since then it has just sort of been that whole period where you are just doing what you can to keep your sanity and your head above the water. But it seems like treading water isn't working and I'm going down pretty quick. Like my memory has been for shit recently. I had a paper due for my zoo and I totally forgot about the whole damn thing. This sucks. I don't know what to do. I can't do bad in another zoo class.
One good thing is that I got a girlfriend. Laura Emde. I went to High School with her but never really knew her. I really do love her, but I'm starting to realize exactly how inexperienced and naive I really am and with that there are certain thoughts that follow...
Moving on. I know this is going to sound sadistic, but maybe I can get away with this zoo thing if I just bust my ass. I can't flunk out, I can't give up. I can't let that stupid bitch of an advisor be proved right. I can't fail....
Someone pray for me....
I guess the immortal words of Zapata are going to have to get me through this again
"It's better to die on your feet then live on your knees"
I've tried to live by that saying and never give up the fight because I'm starting to realize that what life is made of is fight. You fighting to prove to yourself what you are made of. Fighting to prove to others what you can do. Fighting to protect and take care of those you love. Fighting to live a good life in a world that just doesn't seem to cherish "good" anymore (that's probably a personal one). Fighting to make this world a better place when it seems like a majority of people just don't give a damn. But one fight I'm going to give up is the fight to stay awake because I need to go to bed because I have a feeling like I'm going to have an early morning.
A close friend of mine was killed 2 weeks ago when he went jogging. He got hit by a train. Since then it has just sort of been that whole period where you are just doing what you can to keep your sanity and your head above the water. But it seems like treading water isn't working and I'm going down pretty quick. Like my memory has been for shit recently. I had a paper due for my zoo and I totally forgot about the whole damn thing. This sucks. I don't know what to do. I can't do bad in another zoo class.
One good thing is that I got a girlfriend. Laura Emde. I went to High School with her but never really knew her. I really do love her, but I'm starting to realize exactly how inexperienced and naive I really am and with that there are certain thoughts that follow...
Moving on. I know this is going to sound sadistic, but maybe I can get away with this zoo thing if I just bust my ass. I can't flunk out, I can't give up. I can't let that stupid bitch of an advisor be proved right. I can't fail....
Someone pray for me....
I guess the immortal words of Zapata are going to have to get me through this again
"It's better to die on your feet then live on your knees"
I've tried to live by that saying and never give up the fight because I'm starting to realize that what life is made of is fight. You fighting to prove to yourself what you are made of. Fighting to prove to others what you can do. Fighting to protect and take care of those you love. Fighting to live a good life in a world that just doesn't seem to cherish "good" anymore (that's probably a personal one). Fighting to make this world a better place when it seems like a majority of people just don't give a damn. But one fight I'm going to give up is the fight to stay awake because I need to go to bed because I have a feeling like I'm going to have an early morning.
